Wednesday, December 2, 2015

IWSG: My Inner Cynic

Today is IWSG day, a monthly event Alex Cavanaugh started to get writers sharing about their insecurities and non-insecurities too. I'm so late with my IWSG post this month but I'm here! Today has been a long day. While I could rant about a number of things right now regarding current events, it's probably best that I keep this post about my writing.

I'm feeling a little bummed that I haven't fulfilled my November goal, which was to finish the first draft of my YA novel. Just five more chapters or so, and I’d be done.  And if the NaNoWriMo participants could churn out 100,000 words in 30 days, shouldn’t I be able to do just a fraction of that?

But last month a number of unexpected things came up and they distracted me from my fiction writing.

Maybe it’s because it’s that time of the year when people tend to wrap up their projects or unfinished businesses...and since my novel is still unfinished, my inner cynic nags: What a slowpoke you are. At this rate,  you'd probably never finish your novel. I know….I’m supposed to just keep writing. That’s what I’m trying to do, even though sometimes it’s easier said than done.

I hope that I can find some time in December to finish up my novel. Here my inner cynic goes: You're kidding, right? How are you going to find the time to write before, during, and after the holidays?

How do you deal with your inner cynic?  

7 comments:

Alex J. Cavanaugh said...

You're just five chapters away - that's still good!
We all have our own pace. Just relax and keep writing.

Madeline Mora-Summonte said...

Sometimes pushing ourselves to finish a project is good, but sometimes it can be paralyzing and/or draining. Try to be realistic, and definitely don't be so hard on yourself! :)

Pat Hatt said...

5 chapters is better than 6 or 15 away. So you'll get there indeed.

John Wiswell said...

There are plenty of reasons why someone wouldn't reach the same monthly goal as another. Health problems, your demanding more time than usual, family crises - all of which can be remedied by habitual writing in the long term rather than focusing on one month of productivity. Your book idea is still here in December, and I hope you find the time you need to write what you want. Good luck on finishing!

I deal with my inner cynic through pragmatism. Cynicism and naivete are both the results of illusion rather than evidence. If I get any work done, it's a better month than if I hadn't.

S.P. Bowers said...

At the end of the year we all feel a certain need to finish, finalize, wrap things up. Ignore it. do what you can, whatever doesn't get done will still be there in January. This is a time to be with friends and family and a time to let your writing muscles regroup. And finishing something just to finish it isn't the best for you or the project.

Dianne K. Salerni said...

I didn't set a word count for goal for November. I set a time goal -- the amount of time I would spend on writing each day. And I blew it SO BAD. But the fact was, I hadn't committed myself to a single project. I was trying out several and feeling a lot of insecurity on all of them.

The fact is, for me, I can't rush it or time it. When it's ready, it comes. But I need to give myself space and time. Perhaps you do too!

M.K. Louie said...

November and December are also the busiest months of the year to spend quality time with family. We know you're a great wife and mom, and everything else comes after. Sure, you are delayed with your writing. But there is all of 2016 to look forward to.

In January 2015, I was hoping to finish my novel's revision by the end of this year. But as of today, I've only got FOUR really good chapters and 26 crappy ones to edit further. AND THAT IS OKAY. In the meantime, I've made major steps in my corporate career, my family life, and simply living an adventure.

Now I'm hunkered down and focused on my novel. Am I disappointed with my novel? Sure. But definitely not cynical about life or the near future :) You're doing great, Cynthia. Keep on writing!

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